Awakened Memoir

-An Ongoing Story of Personal Crisis and Spiritual Indifference-

I stuck close to the lamps light in the center for safety.

Consciousness creates everything.

Two years ago on May 14th, I was shocked with a sudden spiritual crisis that lasted 124 days, or four months. I made it through the dark nights and survived, barely. Their was much suffering and learning happening all at once. I was a drug addict with no spiritual knowledge or the will to live.

These are small pieces of what took place, and a narrative from my minds own view. I do not leave anything out, so I warn you it is very raw and bold at times. Take a trip with me into some of the mystical and surreal experiences that almost shook me to death.

I try to publish something every few nights.

I was pulled by something to face what I had left behind…

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  Disappearance – Thirty-one –January 30, 2023
  Where did she go?
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  Back To La La Land – Thirty –January 24, 2023
  Let the games play on.
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  Revealing Past Sins Entirely and Completely? -Twenty-Nine-January 23, 2023
  The acceptance of more truth. Awakened Memoir Shari spent that afternoon wandering around the city. Everything looked the same, only […]
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  Bottomed Out -Twenty-Eight-January 11, 2023
  There must be a way.
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  Evil Incarnate Part Three -Twenty-Seven-January 3, 2023
  Squibble Land 2
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  Evil incarnate Part Two -Twenty-Six-January 3, 2023
  Squibble Land Part 1
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  Evil Incarnate Part One -Twenty-Five-December 25, 2022
  Even evil has its place… Awakened Memoir “Miss Holmes, Shari, can I call you?… we have spent a lot of […]
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  Preparation For Truth -Twenty-Four-December 24, 2022
  A truth can bring about dread.
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  When Night Is Falling -Twenty-Three-December 21, 2022
  There’s no place like home.
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  Let It Rain -Twenty-Two-December 15, 2022
  This is a place of evil.
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  Prequel To My Nightmare -Twenty-One-December 14, 2022
  Is this existential Hell?
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  Back To The Beginning -Twenty-December 13, 2022
  It gets better all the time.
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  Finding The Strength -Nineteen-December 11, 2022
  Hold your chin up now.
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  Mercy Killing -Eighteen-December 3, 2022
  Keep your eyes on the ground.
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  Sleep Well My Evil Friend -Seventeen-December 1, 2022
  If you imagine it hard enough it will happen. Every time.
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  Home Free -Sixteen-November 30, 2022
  A safe place to die.
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  It’s Ten O’clock -Fifteen-November 27, 2022
  Run your ass off.
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  Some Questions Answered -Fourteen-November 26, 2022
  I am ready to bolt. Again.
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  Dawn Says Everything -Thirteen-November 25, 2022
  It was better in the dark.
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  Marci and Jennifer -Twelve-November 25, 2022
  Absurdly surreal, as my existence.
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  The Parking Lot Introduction – One –November 18, 2022
  Consciousness is Everything
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  What Have I Done? – Eleven –November 17, 2022
  The insanity consumes me.
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  Lost In A Sick Truth -Ten –November 16, 2022
  I thought I knew who I was.
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  Time’s Up – Nine –November 15, 2022
  Belief can produce miracles.
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  The Three Watchers – Eight –November 13, 2022
  Shit, they’re back.
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  The Motel Neighbours – Seven –November 9, 2022
  Fight for my life now!?
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  The Hospital Death Trip – Six –November 7, 2022
  When is it too much?
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  An Explanation? -Five-November 6, 2022
  It’s all my imagination.
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  An Interrupted Mission – Four –November 3, 2022
  Consciousness Is Everything
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  Trying To Embrace Death -Three-October 27, 2022
  Welcome to Windsor, folks.
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  Unanswered Questions -Two-October 26, 2022
  Consciousness is everything.